Monday, December 19, 2005
always the hours
Thanks for commenting, Liam and S. Shoup.
I finally finished reading The Hours by Michael Cunningham, and I watched the movie adaptation (which I bought for four dollars at a used CD and DVD store) this week. Both book and movie are wonderful. I could go into all the ins and outs of the story, but that'd probably be boring. In a nutshell, though, The Hours explores humans' fascination with death, the idea of the "well-lived" life, the roles and restrictions imposed by society, and the surprising connections that exist between people. Highly recommended.
So I finished all my Christmas shopping, though I'm still waiting for two packages to arrive. I [heart] giving people Christmas gifts. *nods* I just have to write out my Christmas cards now.
So mostly I'm just enjoying my break from classes (in spite of the fact that it can get pretty boring around here). I don't go back for the spring semester until January 16th.
Hope all of you are enjoying your vacations as well.
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Monday, December 12, 2005
so i was procrastinating instead of studying for finals...
...and I decided to look at my Site Meter statistics page. Site Meter has this nifty feature where it plots recent visitors' locations on a world map. Anyways, apparently people from all sorts of places have visited my site. Estonia, Norway, the Czech Republic, Germany, France, the United Kingdom, Australia, Canada, and bunches of cities throughout the U.S. (including L.A., which I desperately want to visit). Maybe it's just my total lack of international travel (and minimal interstate travel), but I think that's the coolest thing ever. The eyes of the world are on me.
In a totally uninterested, noncomprehensive way.
Anyways... *waves at all the people who live in places more interesting than Pennsylvania...i.e. everywhere* Back to studying. I apologize for the pointlessness of this entry; I'd promise a more interesting one later on, but you can just never predict the magical stuff that comes out of procrastination.
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Saturday, December 10, 2005
...couldn't drag me away
Thanks for commenting, Liam.
I went to my old dance studio's Christmas Show today. I slept through my alarm this morning, so I came home a bit later than I planned. As a result, I didn't have time to visit my old dance friends backstage before the show started. (I hadn't told anyone I was coming either.) After the finale, I went back to the dressing room just as my friend Katie was coming out. As soon as she saw me, she started crying...so of course I starting crying. We hugged and chatted, and it was so wonderful to see her again. We never hung out with one another outside of dance class, but I think we learned to lean on each other quite a bit. It made me feel good, knowing that I'd affected her, that we'd affected each other.
Connections like that make everything worthwhile.
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Thursday, December 8, 2005
Tonight I had a conversation about boy troubles with one of my friends, and I admitted to her that I can't picture myself falling in love. More to the point, I can't imagine why anyone would fall in love with me. I am eighteen years old, and I have only had one genuine boyfriend. Looking back, I realize that I didn't like it when he touched me. When he rubbed his finger back and forth across my palm during a movie, the motion felt absent-minded and awkward; his hand around my waist made me feel self-conscious. The two of us never kissed. In fact, in my eighteen years, I have never been kissed at all.
I'm not sure exactly what keeps me from dating. I guess it's probably a combination of a lot of things. I'm not really the sort of person who would make a good girlfriend. I am unhealthily self-critical and introverted. I am not beautiful, and I don't feel compelled to worry about straightening my hair in the morning or putting on makeup. Unlike the vast majority of college students, I don't like to drink or party.
I feel things too deeply, and I guard myself too heavily.
I keep thinking of those stupid cliches. There's somebody out there for you. blah blah. I picture a quiet, artsy boy kissing my hand.
Real life is never that pretty.
It snowed tonight. When I looked outside my dorm window, the snow looked like glitter under the building lights lining the courtyard. A perfect, cheesy, snowglobe world. Of course, when I dipped my finger in the pile of snow that had accumulated inside my window screen, it was just cold and wet and empty.
Posted by Christy @ 11:12 PM | Comments disabled
Monday, December 5, 2005
would you prefer the easy way? no? well ok then, don't cry.
So I've decided to clean up the site a bit. (No, I'm not kidding.) I started by archiving all my old blog entries (by "archive," I mean that I tucked them away in a folder on my laptop, where no one but me can access them...heh). And now, I'll probably update my links page or about me page... or maybe even my writing site. ... Crazy, I know. As far as actual blogging is concerned, I just really haven't had the inspiration lately. Condensed fun stuff from the past few weeks: I performed in my college dance theater concert, and I auditioned for and was selected to be in a ballet repertory class next semester. Oh, and I saw Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, which was wonderful! And now, I'm buying Christmas gifts and counting down the seconds until I get to leave for Christmas break on the 15th. *ponders* Yeah, that's about it really. And now, to fill up space (because this layout gets all spoggly if the main text area isn't full), I'm going to re-post my lovely Rondinone icons and some Kurt Halsey ones I just made:
P.S. The title of this entry is from the song "Joyful Girl" by Ani Difranco. And as my friend, Chrissy, pointed out, it's ridiculously applicable to my current situation... Yeah.
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