Monday, April 3, 2006
the one where i avoid apologizing for being a lying little fuck
Random thing I wrote a few days ago:
I'm hungry. I briefly consider eating toothpaste. That's what the main characters did in a survival movie I saw when I was younger. They were lost in the Alaskan wilderness. I'm alone in my college dorm room.
I end up choking down a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. It's my fifth one this week; I've been counting. I eat it slowly, listening to myself chew and attempting to separate each crumb in my mouth. The more I think about the sandwich, the less I taste it.
It's time to get ready for dance class. I hate dance class. And I'm a dance major. I go through four outfits before I decide on a pink tank top and loose black pants.
And now, I'm thinking about survival because of that movie I mentioned. And really the only difference between me and the people in that stupid movie is that I lack their will to live.
I feel: 
pensive
Posted by Christy @ 9:53 PM | Comments disabled